“Here I am…., On the road again. Here I am…., up on the stage”.
You may recognize a few of the words from the Bob Seger song, “Turn the Page”. This is what came to mind when I sat down to put keyboard to blog today. Go check out the lyrics on that link, it could almost have been a song about blogging.
It has been a while since I posted a blog entry, and I keep hearing Mandy Thompson tell (nag? Encourage?) me to just stop and write, so here I go. I thought I would just dive in and try to explain why I even want to blog my personal thoughts, since the words I blog seem to come from a place I do not readily connect to at a conscious level. Okay – that sounds strange, even to me. What I mean by that is that I seem to have around 4 or so actual different levels of thought:
- Public – These are the thoughts I have that I communicate verbally. They are wayyy too guarded. Think about it – you do this too, hide your real thoughts.
- Private – Only for my own consumption. Sorry – you would freak out if I shared those with you. #tmi
- God stuff – I know he hears all the thoughts, but sometimes I have specific conversations (thoughts because they are not always verbal), where I think differently and more honestly than I even do internally to myself. And yeah – he talks back to me. I hope that freaks all you atheists out.
- Blogging – I try and mix all the above up into a written form that I want to share. Why? For one thing, I want to get your input, but it doesn’t matter if I do or not – just better if I do. Secondly, I want to help you elicit a little honest thinking as I try and be relationally real at an appropriate level. So if it makes you think a little bit…., Yayyy.
What comes out in my blogging category is a real hodgepodge of what is in my head, so can be wildly different from day to day. But in some strange way it all comes together in a reasonable manner – or at least to me it does, your results may vary there. It just serves a real clarifying purpose for me, as I try and organize my thinking.
So there – that’s why I am here, on the stage. Weird, or does it make some sense to you?